this will most likely be my last tblog post. I'll repeat the "most likely" part because i never know what the heck i think anymore... but i will be updating a lot less often if i do decide to keep it. well, in accordance to the wishes of 'white'. i will now post Mexican Seafood by Nirvana...
Mexican Seafood
Oh, itchy flakes, it isn't through me Till the jaw's in flames, it's entertaining True, the fungus mold is my attraction Oh, it's only a dys-infection
Only hurts a night, until I pee Only hurts a night, until I sleep
Oh, coming up, and diarrhea On the tile floor, a gummy pizza In the toilet bowl, aroma cloudy Toss, feel it burn, become a chowdered mess
Only hurts a night, until I pee Only hurts a night, until I sleep
Oh, take my bed, I've just consumed some Flies, bugs and fleas and even mucus Stain the Vaseline, and tainted burgers Stop, in case it learns, and takes a joke as such
Uhh... ~~~
PEACE LOVE EMPATHY, Megalynn Novella Bee
I'll go out of my way to prove I still smell her on you
"I got this friend, you see Who makes me feel And I wanted more then I could steal I'll arrest myself, I'll wear a shield I'll go out of my way to prove I still Smell her on you" -Nirvana, [i]Lounge Act[/i]
this weekend i went to gatlinburg with my church class. i thought it was going to suck... but it wasnt that bad i guess. soemone that hasnt talked to me in forever finally talked to me. i had to take care of screaming babies all day sunday and spend 3 and a half hours with them on the way home... -.-
guys suck... thats all i have to say left to say..... 8)
Sliver-
Mom and dad went to a show They dropped me off at Grandpa Joe's I kicked and screamed, said please don't go
Grandma take me home
Had to eat my dinner there Mashed potatos and stuff like that I couldn't chew my meat's too good
She said, well, don't you start your crying Go outside and ride your bike That's what I did, I killed my toe
After dinner, I had ice cream I fell asleep and watched TV I woke up in my mother's arms...
I wanna be alone
too clean for thrash, too pure for metal, too good to ignore...
nothing to blog about... just felt like posting something on here.... ill probably just ramble through most of this.
do you know what 'flipper babies' are? there babies born without any arms... i thought that was interesting... anne geddes (however you spell her name) is a really cool 'baby artist'. one of my freinds intorduced me to her work... its great. im thinking of posting a pic of a 'flipper baby'.... hmm... yes yes... i think i will.
crap... cant find one... well, ill post an anne geddes..
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this has to be one of her most famous pictures...
me and my freind were looking at an anne geddes website nd were accused of bieng baby porn fanatics by some kid...
My throat hurts... i think i'll listen to some Nirvana. ~Kurts will for suicide -by Megalynn
ive been thrown into the direction of another one of my Kurt Cobain/Nirvana spells... so im obsessed with him AGIAN! thanks for rekindling the flame, cara! ^.~ if it werent for the man himself, underground music wouldnt even be recognized... unfortunately for you, this entry is going to be about my little opinion on why he killed himself that no one gives a shit about...
From my viewpoint of the whole entire Nirvana movement and Kurt's life, he wasn't depressingly sick in the head, the drugs didn't matter, he even thought his life was good... and for the most part, he was happy. Cobain wasn't stupid enough to kill himself over depression... for someone like him, depression is easily overcome through writing and living. The lyrical genious didn't kill himself over the commercialism his band produced, or the "lack of love" in his life that he said he felt... I'm sure it was there in his feelings, but it had really nothing to do with his suicide. His obvious hatred for the publicity was noticable all his rock star career and would have continued even after his death, just like he proved. No, Kurt's intellectual power stretched beyond that... His feelings were the cause of his death... and so were his thoughts. Have you ever had the feeling that reality just vanished before your eyes and you were an unknown entity even in your own body? That life had no purpose in your eyes, even one that was happy? That being alone meant not being hassled by everyone, though you don't mind the commute? I think that these things could have very well went through his mind all of his life... and his suicide was an expression of that feeling rather then the one people usually commit suicide for. It was the unimportance of life that he cared about. He loved, but the love had no meaning... Kurt said in his last written work that "I feel as if I should have a punch in time clock before I walk out on stage." That would be a little evidence as to why i think this way towards his feelings. If Cobain written how he truely feeled, the feeling of nothing, then he would come out as a cold, selfish bastard. Which he still let on to that, but it would have multipied by thousands if his true feelings were expressed. To me, his last letter to the world was all the feelings he knew he needed for the symptoms of suicide. He was feeling/had felt those feelings all before, and contributed to his death, but weren't the cause. Some people are meant to live, some to die. Some people are meant to help better benefit the masses, some are meant to contribute to the motivation of that benefit. Everyone has something to prove in one way or another, whether it's to a million people, 3 people, or just to themselves, it's the purpose of thier life. But Kurt was meant to prove that life has no existence... and he did just that. But for all we know, he could be sitting in a house in Aberdeen right now... With his ulcer-related stomache pains, throat still recovering, though its been years since his last pereformance, with his daughter beside him watching the latest news on mtv, making sarcastic comments about the unrealism of it all.
lol... it still needs proof reading... ^.~ i hope somene actually reads this lol 8)
I will admit, I hate those things I said. Girls always cry, guys will never admit they did
i dont feel like bitching about stuff in my blog today.. go figure... instead, i think ill just post something as stupid as my classes... 1st period is Mrs. Helton by request because she's my fav. teacher ^.~ 2nd is Mrs. Dickerson yay! i really like her too... 3rd is *ugh* Mr. Nixon -.o boring... and 4th i have Mrs. Bell or The Horse Lady for art history
i love art history!!! i cant wait to have it again tommorrow ^.O. oh yes... and cara said she loved me ^.^ ^.^ and she also gave me a kick-ass kurt cobain bio thingy thats great cause i love kurt (yes...im a necro o.O) and a piggie charm bracelet thingy!!! cause thingies rule and cara must have known that i think thingies rule so she gave me 2 thingies!!!! and they rule!!! *.*
It's raining, again Grey clouds hang Above the sodden land People soaked to the bone Wander through puddles In their bleak raincoats And their bleak shoes And their bleak umbrellas And the rain sleets down On our heads The world is silent Except for the sound of nature Which lasts forever
- Unknown
To bad you're wrong, don't need a mom dad slave drive song
to go along also with that last entry, and also because i just watched the movie 'loser' (which is awesome), im thinking about making my own style. such as making my clothes the way i want them to be... i think cara also does this.. and if your reading this chicka.. i swear im not 'stealing your idea' and trying to be a 'wannabe'.. i jus thtought it was a killer idea from the movie.. i know oyu cant really steal something like that from anyone else, its something thats your own.. i was just making sure no one was going to look at this that way... 8)
now mom... if your reading this... i need to go to umm... well.. somewhere.. really anywhere i can and find some black shirts and stuff.... :wink: dont freak on me mom... you wont enjoy this, but i will. lol... :twisted:
And mom and dad posses the key of instant slavery...
yes yes... a new year, a new style for me. last year i think i was prep/punk... this year im whatever-the-hell-i-wanna -be. and im enjoying it so far. :wink:
to go along with the new year, the beginning of new things, and being adventurous, im going to do something i havent done in forever... add lyrics, lyric excerpts, quotes, poems, or poem excerpts to the ending of my blog entries... yes yes... new things lay beyond the horizon... i can feel it :D
so the first song ill post the lyrics to (or part of) will be Smashing Pumpkins- Today
"Today is the greatest day Ive ever known Cant live for tommorow, tommorows much to long Ill burn my eyes out before I get out I wanted more than life could ever grant me Bored by the chore of saving face Today is the greatest day Ive ever known Cant wait for tommorow I might not have that long Ill tear my heart out before I get out Pink ribbon scars that never forget I tried so hard to cleanse these regrets My angel wings were bruised and restrained My belly stings Today is the greatest day... That I have ever really known"
now... a quote for the new year... this has always been one of my favorite quotes...
"There are things known and there are things unknown, and in between are the doors." -- Jim Morrison
maturity seems to be an issue now these past few weeks, not only for me but for other people i know. so what is maturity? is it limited to action? and how far can it go...
Immaturity- The state or quality of being immature or not fully developed.
Maturity- The period of time in your life after your physical growth has stopped and you are fully developed
developement has a lot to do with age, but does age have anything to do with maturity? ive personally felt that one should hold on to childhood as long as possible. when you were a kid, it didnt matter if bad things happened in the world... you didnt worry about getting older.. and you certainly didnt worry about falling head over heels for anyone... which is the best part of being immature. getting older means having so much more responsibility for things... things of greater value that were harder to obtain. so your pushed up so far to get these things... and once youve had them, your happy... at least for the moment. and if you lose them....... you fall so hard to the ground you leave gashes and open holes that make the next thing you want a lot more unobtainable.....
so whats this all about? nothing.. go back to doing whatever you were before you started reading this... 8)
Get out your highlighters people... this is totally neon...
yes... me tiddle blog has changed again... and my eyes hurt from staring at all the neon. :shock: so if you cant read this, im sorry... but theeen... how are you getting the apology... oh well 8) .... but ill get a different pic here soon and different text style, yadda yadda yadda.....
enjoy my pathetic litte life, and laugh at it a little. it will make you feel worlds better....
Smile! today sux.. but god... tomorrows gonna be worse.. cheer up a little, k? :wink:
i bet your sitting there, loking at your computer screen thinking "wtf has this girl done to her blog.... it looks like crap.." and yes.. i agree. but its going along with my new lotr kick... so get use to it :twisted:
if you cant tell, im in love with lord of the rings. especially pippin and sam. i even have a friend that looks like pippin ^.^. thats what started me really likeing him... and sam is just awesome. im not even talking abotu the movies, im talking about the characters from the book series.
gah... arent you sick of lotr yet???? i am.... :cry:
And the people in whoville say, that the grinches small heart grew three sizes that day
this blog will not be about me. continuing on in the holiday spirit, i want to hear all about your christmases! ^.^ post me a comment all about it... no this isnt a cheap way to get comments, i want to hear how your christmases went, too see who had holiday cheer and who didnt, to see what you got and what all touched you and made you happy. i love you all, and i hope evrything was great! but even if it wasnt, lets hear it any way lol.
Bye!! and Merry Be-Lated Christmas! :o
Mist and shadow, Cloud and shade, Hope shall fail, All shall....fade
Home is behind the world ahead And there are many paths to tread Through shadow To the edge of night Until the stars are all alight
Mist and shadow Cloud and shade Hope shall fail All shall fade...
i love it when i find an actor or actress with talents not only on the screen but like singing, or playign an instrament, or writing.... billy boyd is my new fettish for this. he not only acts, but sings beautifully. in lotr 3 he sings that song that above. billy has an all around great personality. id rather meet him then elijah wood, and elijah was my first actor/crush... lol him and joey lawerence :roll: ...
billy boyd sings, rider strong writes, johnny depp plays guitar... those are the ones i love right now... sorry leo... :lol: well... just wanted to add that uninteresting information to my blog....
oh ya.. and the pic on my header is one of elijah. ;)
I'd go through a thousand fires of hell just to have this day not happen again...
i woke up when i wanted, which is a change since mom usually wakes me up when she gets ready for work. so i woke, lounged around for a bit, then decided to wrap presents. after i got done, my brother called.. now it was about 1:00. he wanted to know if i wanted to go see lord of the rings with him, so i of course went. i love my brother but weve never really have done anything together...
on the way there it was quiet... he asked me about school and stuff but that was abotu it. but after we watched the movie we just statred talking about a lot of stuff... and for once... i felt like he was my brother.. and that he actually cared about me. we then went to go eat and he suprises me by going to a japenese sushi resturant. i loved it... he said i was natural with it, with eating with chopsticks and stuff... came home and got on the internet..... why the hell i got on the internet i dont know... i could literally shoot myself for that....
... i ended up losing a good friend tonight... someone i love a lot... he's like the best guy-friend i have..or had.... the one i love to talk to and compare thoughts, opinions and ideas with.... but through some fault of mine, we are no longer friends... to top that off he hates me. and its all over damn eric... every since that a lot of people treat me different... worse then what they did... i dotn know whether i should discontinue my relationship for the happiness of others, or if i should enjoy my happiness in him and not worry about how my friends feel about it.... well.. now that ive wasted a few minutes of your time... i suppose ill go....
Somehow, the albino iguanas escaped from my pants... have you seen them?
(dont be scared at the length of this blog entry. please read it... if your into freaky stuff like this like i am, then you'll get your kicks at bitterfilms.com) :shock:
she was one of those people who was very good at faking an interest in children. oooh that's quite lovely she'd moo at the child's inept little scribbles, allthewhile thinking of just how easily she could toss it into the fireplace or even through a thin window, for it was still young and quite small and floppy and she reckoned light enough for a woman of her size and strength to hurl across the room several yards or more. i love women that tell me how much they paid for pieces of clothing that they're wearing, after i compliment them on it. it makes me feel like i am their friend, or could be. she opened the drawer and found the preserved little head from last week: do you mind if i use this for something? for i enjoy scrubbing furiously with their furry little furry heads, the grease just comes straight off, you see? simply loverly, i think this must be one of those "make up your own caption" sorts of photos,you know, the ones with the compromising picturegraph of a little creature in peril and the corresponding blank space in which to fill in a clever or amusing play-on-words, as for this one she filled in, "i enjoy their little fur heads but not the rest" and was very smug about it even when noone else understood her humour joke. nevertheless, ----- the tumor continued to grow behind her knee, forming a foamy likeness of a pop culture religious icon that certain religious followers might possibly perceive as being a meaningful omen rather than a foaming runaway mass of cancerous cells. the dutiful scrubbing of their little heads over its darkening shape was doing less and less good and she decided that obviously this was because the furry heads were of low quality and she needed not only more of them but higher quality ones, ones with better hair-dos and ones with richer skin and cleaner ears and purer eyes from which to stare out at nothing anymore but the endless ballooning back of her knee, scrub scrub scrub.
hey peeps. urg... i havent had time to breath since saturday. went and saw lotr 3 saturday night and ended standing in a line from 6:05 to 7:10. we actually got a ticket though ^.^. the line was way out into the street passed the first set of cars. but it was well worth it. the 3rd one is by far my favorite of all the series. i might actually go see it again tomorrow... *breath*... im ok now... thats the first time ive got to do that all weekend...
today i went christmas shopping. i spent over 115 bucks. and that all was my own hard earned lunch money for the past like 4 or 5 months. dont say i dont think about my friends, i do. i just wish i could have got something for everyone. :cry: dont kill me just yet if you dont get something. i still have shopping to do, it might just come a little late. i only have jareds, hannahs, danis, jesses, erics, my moms, and i think thats it so far... im sorry... more is coming though... im spending my christmas money to get more. i love you guys and i dont want anyone to be left out. if you comment saying you wouldnt mind a little something, then ill will try my hardest to get you something. :wink: luvs ya all...
[i]Morning Flight[/i] -by Sean Astin *for those of you who dont know, he played the star in Rudy and Samwise Gamgee in Lord of the Rings*
Early to Rise Shark sun skies From out the mist By the Chilled wind kissed Pulled back in the seat For the glory to climb Higher we fly I won’t be denied By the Gods who protect me And the children who smile By heavens and angels Or the fear that assails Snow capped razors Jagged and strong Up from the Earth Over distance, through song Spectrum of sparkles in dew drops outside Forever in motion this poem my guide...
Oh look! Just 345,678,665,285,001 days until i start caring what you think...
everythings pissing me off today. im tired and i feel like crap... im warning you now, if you offended by things i say, im sorry. *cough* ok...
everyones so judgemental and cynical. gah, get over it! who gives a fuck, ok?!!! thats why im going to stop commenting on these stupid people who come to my blog for attention... i just dont care anymore... but it pisses me off going to different blogs and seeing all these comments with people stating their opinion on something that no one asked or wanted their opinion on. say things that are positive or dont say anything at all, ok? no one wants to hear something bad... like thats all this world needs, more people saying whats on their minds. if everyone did that then everyone would hate each other. if you try to stay positive on stuff even as small as this, then all these little faults that you see in everything everyday will eventually disappear. now i know right now im not one to be talking about this kind of stuff... this entry isnt exactly nice itself. but if your reading this, then your hearing an opinion. i know you didnt want to hear it and didnt ask for it... so dont even go there in your comments. but you made the choice to read it. and you can leave a positive or a negative comment... i dont care on this blog entry. just most posts that dont need any criticing get the most....
ill stop pissing you off....
(Foo Fighters remake of Darling Nikki is kickass!)
As the angels fall to their knees, their wings were torn in my dreams.
-All Falls River Failed i love the lyris to this bands songs... they're great! but i havent got to hear any of their songs... the band is 'A life once lost'. dani? cara? have you guys heard of them? and if so, any good songs i should download? ive been getting into 'the julianna theory' here lately too. i think they're awesome. :wink:
tomorrow night me and mom are going to see the lord of the rings: the return of the king. but im already getting sick of the advertising for it. its all you see and hear... that and the cat in the hat. that got waaay too much publicity.
and now, for something i havent done in a while in either of my journals; im going to continue to post lyrics from different songs i like. or at least parts of songs... i might start doing quotes too.. ive forgotten about them for so long... :lol:
All Falls River Failed
"A falls river farewell. Sometimes I sing by myself. alone, away from the angels that hold my hand. As I walked way scared from the memories that I choked on, Memories of you, wiping them away with glass. Angels sing songs about you. They bleed in my dreams bringing those memories of you alive. As the angels fall to their knees, their wings were torn in my dreams. My eyes were torn to shreds."
lol... dont laugh at me people. this is my pathetic attempt at a song. it needs lotsa work, im getting there.. one day i might post the final product.
It's to cold to think and to quiet to hear Somewhere a voice is coming over the air Waves crash in and leave as they came My thoughts are in motion, always the same But wait... Just wait...
Everyone thinks But honestly, they dont know Sometimes your there, but when do you show? Silence is the weapon meant for a hand Coupled thought: a gun Thats why i ran Thats why i ran...
Apply makeup to cover imperfection Time cant erase, but it can be broken. So i ran to run, only running to stand still On the corner of a street where the sky fell And i wait... Just wait...
Everyone thinks But honestly, they dont know Sometimes your there, but when do you show? Silence is the weapon meant for your hand Coupled thought: a gun Thats why i ran Thats why i ran...
Ran to get away Away from you And the damp cold chill Of running to stand still Running to stand still Running to stand still...
Thats why i ran... Only to run... Standing still. ~
ok, so i ripped off of bono (lead singer of U2* ya... i did a lot... so sue me. ..... wait... that could happen... . <.>
well this sux... im disturbed and down with the sickness... just like everyone else... ^.^
i prolly wont be in school tomorrow, so this message is to everyone: I love you and sorry if i passed around deadly hugs of doom to you... i didnt mean to. ive been in denial that i was sick... jared watch out, you might have gotten it from me. damn me and my huggy-ness. everyone have fun taking tests and i hope you do great! dont catch the icky thing thats going around... it isnt fun to have. and im going to miss you! even if it is just for one day, i love you all and i wish you the best! for those already sick, drink lotsa water and oj.. and if you cough up mucus dont swallow it, spit it out (nice image, isnt it?) i hope you get better, we all need to go to one anothers house and be quarentine together.
live long and prosper!!! ~~~~
the wordless watch the soft sky smile and breathless hear the low wind sigh...
this is kinda weird... well not really but anyway.. im in a metal/the cure phase with my music... lol... and SURELY youve heard of the cure... even you milagra... im starting to wonder about my brother though... its his favorite band, but im pretty sure the lead singer is gay... the lyrics kinda scare me... they go into detail, ill leave it as that.
so how has everyone been? sick? yes... isnt everyone? im not though... well, i am a little. but i dont want to miss school, but mom said if i get worse she's going to make me. huh, now isnt that wierd... i dont want to miss school. its a routine ive become accustomed to. im going to love college... i cant wait to study phillosiphy, psychology, journalism... its going to be great! ^.^ that is... if i dont do something stupid like get married... cause that would suck. im all about getting married and pushin' a few pups... but not until im 25.
"You flicker And you're beautiful You glow inside my head You hold me hypnotized I'm mesmerized Your flames The flames that kiss me dead" -The Cure The Caterpillar
"takes a dick to be a dick"... my own quote... unless you've heard it before...
wondering about the subject line? im gonna write a story about it...no.. no porno... its about this kid named Patrick Orville Rodney Nelville... or something like that.... and his best friends name is Star. P.O.R.N. is artificially inseminated, but the name was an accident lol... ya... this story will most likely never exist.. i just thought it would be cool if it did...
and The Crow is now one of my new favorite movies!!! i love it! too bad branden lee had to die... he was awesome... the crow is right up there with queen of the damned now... and hannah, if youve never seen it, your comin over and were watching it! youll love it!
paper doll by kittie is my song for the day... anyone know of any good hard rock/heavy metal songs? tell me about them... its my new music phase...
everyone thinks.... but they honestly dont know...
gah.... getting older sux... i hate it. it takes too much emotion and responsibility to be mature... im sick of it. yet i can constantly gripe and complain about people not haveing enough maturity in classes not to spit on the floors, or to not make fun of someone else because of how they look or act or dress.... i dont have the right to. im maturing and getting older myself... and it sux... i hate it... i want to be 8 forever... i never cared about anything when i was 8.... everything was great. i remember being like 4 and i couldnt wait til i was 8 because that was such a mature age for me then... im wierd... i can remember wierd little stuff like that but not much that has any importance or significance... but with some people i can remember everything. like everything in the past... everything from ever since the first time i met them 'til the last time i saw them... everything...
"You touch my heart like no one else can I've loved you since the first time we met. What must I do to make you mine? What must I do to win you're heart? Do you not hear the song that sings of our fate?"
yes... im wierd... and this mood will probably pass like all the rest... lets just hope i dont do some crazy shit that screws up my life like i normally do when im like this... i couldnt handle it... nope. not anymore... not by myself....
"What do you do when you have a broken heart? What do you do when everything reminds you of the one you love? How do to carry on when you know you'll always love her. How to go on living when you so badly need her touch"
both of the segments that i put on here are from a poem called 'theres no such thing as heaven'. hannah can give you the exact webpage and stuff where you can find this and more of his poetry... he's a great writer... what i posted doesnt do his work justice...
"I feel my heart race At the thought of your touch But I find myself asking If the price is too much.
Is the thrill of your kiss Worth the price of my soul; Will I fail once again Or arrive at my goal?
The wind blows so chill On those cold winter nights; And I'm thinking of you As I turn out the lights." [i]-'There's No Such Thing As Heaven'[/i]
You could be the voices that I hear...I'm singing along because it sounds just like you're near
ok enough of that..... im feeling psycho-pathetic because im listening to prozzak- sucks to be you.... i love that song! and i smell like guys curve. everytime i smell it i just want to attack the guy thats wearing it...o.O so how has everyone been? ive been great.... actually today was awesome.... i came into school late, got picked on (like usual) by mr. wilson, mrs. helton wasnt feeling good today, therefore the rest of the class wasnt feeling to good... and the bus driver dropped me off at the peoples house at the end of the road..... i walked home in the freezing cold.... but i saw a bunch of deer so it was cool.... i havent got to the awesome part.. ;)
someone stopped by and made a visit while there brother waited out in the car for like 30 minutes.... i bet he was pissed.... but he had otep to keep him company. :wink: :wink:
does anyone know who kitty is? tell me some music to download. :P
this will most likely be my last tblog post. I'll repeat the "most likely" part because i never know what the heck i think anymore... but i will be updating a lot less often if i do decide to keep it. well, in accordance to the wishes of 'white'. i will now post Mexican Seafood by Nirvana...