So early walking was I this autumn eve, When I saw a web hanging gently from a tree. A bit closer I looked, and gasped at the sight, Of a thousand little spiders just born this night.
Fragile things caught in a web of reality So soon to be crushed by the weight of earth's gravity. And the beauties of life are only fathoms in the air, And like most things evenesce into despair.
The web alone was such a tangle, That to see the spiders meant looking at an odd angle. Some jumping off to make webs of there own, In hopes perhaps of making this world there home.
Fragile things caught in a web of reality So soon to be crushed by the weight of earth's gravity. And the beauties of life are only fathoms in the air, And like most things evenesce into despair.
And how like we, these spiders must be To be caught in a gentle web made be reality. For we all have little webs of our own, In hopes perhaps of making this world our home.
Fragile things caught in a web of reality So soon to be crushed by the weight of earth's gravity. And the beauties of life are only fathoms in the air, And like most things evenesce into despair.
When the child freckled with humor lays grasp upon your hand, Be up and ready and willing to stand. Walk into the dark, frigid web of reality, Then feel the wieght of earth's ever-griping gravity. ~~~
not much, but im proud of it.... needs editing though...
dont bother. todays not a good day. in fact, it really sucks. im gonna be alone for halloween, moms not even going to be home, just me. which doesnt bother me to much, its just what happened about it though. ugh. lol, ive been flipped off a lot today... by cris, dani, melissa and a few more peeps. gah, todays just a really sucky day for me. maybe its the shirt im wearing, it always seems unlucky for some reason. ok, ill shut up now. i hate it when people will just go on and on about there problems, shut up already.
during pep rally today i caught dani and *someone other then jesse* making out. that was funny cause at first i didnt even pay attention to it, i thought it was dani and jess, but then i a.c. and jess just staring, then i kinda got the idea. my god, they were really going at it too. i feel like going and getting them a room and seeing what theyd do. :wink: maybe i will one day...
"Carousel"
I talk to you every now and then I never felt so alone again I stop to think at a wishing well My thoughts send me on a carousel
Here I am standing on my own Not a motion from the telephone I know not a reason why Solitudes a reason to die
Just you wait and see As school life is a It is a woken dream Aren't you feeling alone?
I guess its just another I guess its just another I guess its just another night alone
Now as I walk down the street I need a job just to sleep in sheets Buying food every once in a while But not enough to purchase a smile
A tank of gas is a treasure to me I know now that nothing is free I talk to you every now and then I never felt so alone again
Just you wait and see As school life is a It is a woken dream Aren't you feeling alone?
I guess its just another I guess its just another I guess its just another night alone
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals. (seth brady, anybody know him?)
ah... i think its been a good day... my brother (seth brady) stopped by and suprised everyone with his new stylish hair-cut. lets start the list of what it was, to what it is now, shall we? -age:10; fluffy on top, short on sides. -age:15; shorter hair, normal. -age:16; trendy, spiked in front, shorter on top and sides. -age:17; about the same, except he experimented with side-burns. -age:18; awesome surfer-guy look going. all the girlsies liked this one. it was shorter on the sides with a little longer top that was gelled/waxed to be messy. (nows where it all goes to hell) -age:19; long. not as long as jareds, but his hair is wirey, and it really didnt look right. -age:20; he cut off most of the length, but it still looked bad. -age:still 20 (now), shaved.
all of it... completely off......='(.. he makes me cry. he is currently selling all of his things so he can go live in the woods. no electricity, no running water, no indoor plumbing (which by the way, i have NO IDEA how he'll ever live without). its scary. and he's into all these wierd religions. :? *sigh* i miss the old seth. the money pinching jew-boy (or so his nickname was {and i have NOTHING whatsoever against jews. im practically one of 'em. :wink: })
enough of that. i went to go watch 'no solution' practice again. god, they rawk. everyone better go to see them december 5 or ill KILL YOU ALLLLLLLL!!!!!!! :evil: :evil: :evil:
i need to call a dear friend... bye bye
"Willows watch me from the shore Sugar dreams that linger longer Cradles by the daffodil breeze Tinted tears trickle down rocks Slip into the sea Keep echoes of crickets close at hand Relish the flavor of cushioned air Lap up the last fluorescent sky As the leaves spin down from the trees."
I should've asked, I could've helped at least a fucking 1000 times before...
... ever get the feeling of where theres so many things you want to do to help someone, but you cant? 2 of my really good freinds (i call them my really good friends, there the 2 i can adapt to the most out of all guys) are both haveing really bad days today and one wont tell me whats wrong, and the other i would probably screw things up worse if i tried to help, but i want to so badly it hurts me inside thinking about it.... im at a loss of what to do...
tonight was the fall show. mrs. dickerson was worried sick that we were going to suck... and we did. it wasnt that bad though. a lot of us thought we did real good considering we just completely figured out what we all were doing like friday i think. jared said we sucked. but really, i think there was one person that REALLY made the chorus sound bad. dani, you know who im talking about. but then again, i dont help to much either..lol..
somehow, it seems all my friends are slipping further and further away from me, except for a few. and they know who they are. i dunno what it is... and theres one person in particular that even though were close, i just feel so far away from them most of the time. you know what... i have two friends like that right now. i guess somethings will never mend, and time can only change the wound... omg.. that was a sucky attempt t try to sound semi-poetic.... lmao.... i suck... :(
bc'n ya! (can anyone tell me what thats off of? 50 tbucks says you cant $.$)
sicne i posted 'my town', i wont put a song or poem or anything up.
now, i know this is kinda long, but if you read it and think of your life, and everything around you, this really is what its like here in 'our town'. believe me, read this. its well worth it. id apprecite it if you did, and tell em what you think of it. thanks ^.O
~My Town~ There is a town that you can find between the markets, dust and hicks. Far from plastic needy souls who can't believe in words without a meaning from a book. This town is old, a dusty red, a railroad cross, and star for boring tours. Half on, half off, my life is focused here, here among the trees where it began. Full of "pretty" shops - mostly antique. Potted plants. American class. Full of falsely followed fam'ly values. Teenagers smoke too early here. We have no true life-heroes, but hey, what's new in modern lives? We persist in making sculptures for each other, look upon them to feel free. The hardest answer one can find is "where it's at": wherever one may be. Teenagers drink too early here. Stop having simple birthdays once reaching age of 12, unless you have cool friends... who'll get shit-faced in your honor, by extension - help you run this phasing town. Boldness is your God, and drugs can be your priest. We've all got dreams, but we're all trapped- not by the town, that's just cliche - but by the world that is so damn closely wrapped around, and kept perfectly away. Fear's behind the lazy, comfort's way too much to ever want to chance. You're supposed to have some problems, if you're dreams will never pay. So screw around, and drink a lot and fill your lungs with staled, coffee shop, under-age bought cigarette, night air. Talk about this passion for this girl you'll never have, and plan a band for pastime, and draw yourself a life. Hackey-circles make the union - bum a ride as public transportation. If you want a smile - go buy some beer... light, and they will come. It's late afternoon too many times around my town. We've made style our single champion, in my town. Which is whoever is most reckless, whoever looks most real, and affected by themselves and not the world. Which is funny, 'cause I'm really like all of you... but a little lightly painted flashy by my life. Green Day's on the radio again, but no one listens in my town. We buy CDs and play it poor so we can feel as real as bums, who are so cool because they're free. But what if they just fell a little sooner and can't sing a little louder? Maybe if I hold you rather than shaking hands again, maybe we'll be real just for each other and make railroad trails look longer in the sun. Touch me. See, I'm real. Sensation is the key, like we all know, 'round here. But thought can bring you that much farther into me than they'll admit in my hometown. Let's mark a line... and make our town OUR TOWN, 'cause when I fall I want to know it, and be all the while thorough through it. I've got my friends to catch me everyday. I've MADE my life to catch me everyday. Because we're falling in this town. Teenagers fall too early here. Myspirit withers way too early here. R. Strong
The sun came up this morning over a wonderland of pain
ah! killer lyrics... im still in love with them and ive read them a million times. rawk on jess.... rawk on.
does anyone smell grapes right now? gah! i smell GRAPES! no joke... it smells like grape cough medicine. i love classic rock music... ive been listening to it a lot here lately. that, and 80's music. i wanna hear some killer piano music... maybe some styx?? hmm...
chorus concert tomorrow is going to suck some major ass. most everyone doesnt have a clue about what there doing, and its cheesey shit were doing anyway. gah... im dreading this... and MY COSTUME SUX... i took the grade of a 'F' today just so i wouldnt have to wear it. and lol.... dani's wig... lmfao.... i luv you dani.... and lisa's poor footsy!!!! people!!! love her! she has a hurt foot! grr... show her love and compassion why dont ya!
i wanna hear some Tears for Fears, but the CD is in moms car... oh well... ill have to wait for her to get home. :wink: bye peeps! i leave you in the grace and favor of the Lord.
She wishes upon stars and hopes within dreams that she'll never wake up; she's not what she seems.
Judgements passed upon her, she doesn't even care and she's still hoping to fall in love with what's not even there.
She is a synonym for broken and within her darkened soul, the tears flow unrestricted but she'll never let you know.
So she stares up at the night sky, and drifts within the moonbeam's glow God tells me she's an angel, but I already know.
grr... im feeling lonely right now.... dunno why. i havent talked to jared any all day today.. and !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAPPY B-DAY HANNAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, had to do that ^.^
*sigh* im dreading this damn chorus thing. im wednesday for one of the songs we sing... i dont want to do it anymore. last night was cool. after ditching the lame-ass dance, me and jared went to jesse's to see why him and dani didnt go to the dance, and of course, the making babies got out of hand and thats why they werent there yet. but we still had fun hangin' out and stuff.... runnin around everywhere as (crap, can i say? dani, jared, jess, you know what im talking about, right?)..... ya.... well, i got bored since my last update 2 minutes ago.... i think ill go call jared or something.... i miss my kidden. V.V bye (again)
hey! this sux ass!(looooooooong time ago...)
By and By
Its to fuckin' pretty outside, to see the shit happening indoors The air smells to fuckin' sweet, intoxicating the scences, watching the rain pour My lifes to fuckin' bland, need i say more? Need i say poor? Oh belive me, theres unfortunately more...
'Things happen for a reason', is that why i cry? Poor fuckin' school girl, whos fuckin life should die No one bothers her, all day flies by Alone in her room... by and by...
Its to fuckin late, to admit you were wrong Its fuckin boring, inside the home God ignores Our worlds turned pointless Fuckin silence But you forget, theres unfortunately more...
'Things happen for a reason', is that why i cry? Poor fuckin' school girl, whos fuckin life should die No one bothers her, all day flies by Alone in her room... by and by...
'Things happen for a reason', i think should die, Rather than sitting alone in this hell, holding on tryin not to cry No one is perfect, unless your fuckin christ Alone in her room,...by and by
...by and by... ...by and by... ...by and by... She fuckin' dies...
"im sad to say, i love you all, but its time to take that final fall the one that stretches over time and oblivion where no one can reach me, the final resolution"
i want that on my gravestone i think....i dunno why :p
well, geez.. i havent updated in a long time...ive had a LOT of fun this week... but i got aggravated at a lot of things friday and i wasnt in a good mood... (sorry jared) and i just found out some really sucky news today.... trust me, you DONT want to know what it is.... ooh! i got to hear 'No Solution' practice wednesday, and i must say, they are AWESOME. please... everyone that has it within there means, check them out december 5 at the high-school. ('next time' is totally going to KICK ASS!)
mom actually let me go to the dance friday... and it wasnt to bad.. it kinda sucked. no one was dancing, only talking. and i cant dance... so that didnt help =P well... im gonna gooooo...yes goooo......^.^ bye bye!
gonna give you a break from rider... i have to type a lot of his poetry because i cant find it on the internet anymore... U2- Running to Stand Still
And so she woke up Woke up from where she was Lying still Said I gotta do something About where we're going Step on a steam train Step out of the driving rain, maybe Run from the darkness in the night Singing ha, ah la la la de day Ah da da da de day Ah la la de day Sweet the sin Bitter taste in my mouth I see seven towers But I only see one way out You got to cry without weeping Talk without speaking Scream without raising your voice You know I took the poison From the poison stream Then I floated out of here Singing...ha la la la de day Ha la la la de day Ha la la de day She runs through the streets With her eyes painted red Under black belly of cloud in the rain In through a doorway she brings me White gold and pearls stolen from the sea She is raging She is raging And the storm blows up in her eyes She will... Suffer the needle chill She's running to stand... Still.
yes, i do enjoy a occasional bowl of cereal every once in a while... :roll: im so stupid... i read one of lisa's books she was reading for her english class.. omg was it freaky.... i read a lot of it though... and its put me in a weird state of mind. :x
grr... now IVE been thinking about having some cocoa.. thanks bobby... :evil: causei dont think we have any either......grrrrrrrrrr
shawn colvin rawks. she always has... women in music (with the exception of brittney and christina) always rawks. guys get to much airplay, and if a girl's not hot enough, she cant make it on he music scene...i hate that.
well, ill go.... im bored...
Rachael Falls (a sonnet) Sometimes, in acts of freedom true - The lover hast a dying gasp. Lost souls may find each other new Warm hands o'er frozen hearts to clasp. Through silent wood I've walked alone (The shrug and cold leave them behind) To withered Redwood my axe have shown, And Chance a baby growth didst find. Ah! new leaves so young and bold, The color Time will never touch, Though painful truths he may unfold - The truth which Time allows as such. My heart will rain; on leaves I give. But Time, and you, will make it live. -Rider Strong :)
taint it cuuuuute!!!! i love it.... im wierd... @.@
anywho's..... today ive been especially freaky.... i pissed off some guy that sits at our table at lunch. and then i had some conversation with hannah.. it went something like this: "happieness is so over-rated, depression isnt that bad of a thing. it makes you stop and think more about things... in a way it makes you smarter because of that. happy people are stupid.... depressed people are smart, its as simple as that."
now wait before you get to pissed people... i take it back... i was fruit-loopy and pissed at lunch, and i was bitching about everything.... the people, the happieness thing, and the air i was currently breathing... urgle... im such a bitch.. lol, ive been told that a lot today. not a good thing.. but oh well...
not much has happened... bad things, good things... there all the same to me now. ive been achey all day. went to foster falls saturday and then again on sunday with jared.... that was fun. even though we fought... but were over it now.... thank goodness. i had so much fun yesturday!!! lol... i laughed so much last night, my sides are paying for it today.... it was well worth it though... :wink:
another rider poem... love me peeps, i got you hooked on an awesome guy... 8)
To a Friend
It was freezing in the redwoods always, just for you. Mosses, green and swaying, bending close to fall. Trees to big to to climb for you, but that's just you. You did that thing with life, you do so well: you threw it back ten steps like catch, so I could never tell where the hell you were, or why that's what you wanted. Stand still. Christ, at least for me. There's a chill again tonight. A little eastern breeze... Enough to tumble all the leaves and dreams and dirt and byes in symmetric little piles- perfect, as you like it. The skies were bubbling full of rain always, just for you. The swelling music of the day would fill your eyes and build your sad solid ecstasy: A storehouse- full of life, a barn for all the animals you hate inside of you. Ta-ta, looks like rain. Times like this you'd hold out your hand, and wait for one lone lucky drop to give oyu what you want. And I, my tongue, to taste the chance adn fill my belly with the beauty of the way. While you would wait to touch, and sence and know it, by and by... The texures of life's beauties gave your youth emotion high and a playground of a future, that then you would absorb to know and love. By now, my friend, I do the best i can. I push you off your window ledge again and again. And THAT is why you love me, and in return: I you. Come push the moment to the edge with me, we are ink rain making splashes on a page of history. Take your love, and score the skies for me. - Rider King Strong
first thing i would like to say before i continue: cara, im sorry... i really am.. none of us thought you would get that freaked out about it, or your mom. im sorry if you hate me or if your mom does.... and i feel really bad. sorry again....
this weekend has gone so good.. only one thing has been bad, im not going to say it though. and if you want, you can read in danis or jareds what all happened this weekend with the rolling and everything. but i did loose my locket and thankfully i got it back... yay! me and jared fought today... and it was a silent war, those are the worst kind... because of getting your feelings in the open with screaming, we kept them inside..... we figured them out though its all good....
bobby's been howling me to stop regretting so much. and i suppose i will...*sigh* lol... i cant help but to think about the past though.. its there, its happened and it bites you in the but every once in a while too.... i guess ill go... im going to bed... nighty nighters...
"The thing about choices is it makes us into the people we are. Not the choices themselves, but how we feel about them." - Bobby White (yes, the great man himself)
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NOOOO i cant find 'an unpublished manuscript....' but i will post it on here.... heres this one for now... TA TA!!!
Pepsi Bottles Highways of loneliness here. Crossroads of freedom tracks, Each disappearing into the landscape of a pretty sunlight life. Torn cloth, The fabric ripped from out of lives unknown ... and people True to what they want. I don't know how to get to where and who I want. Pointed signs: stale soliloquies to no one in particular. I watched my shadow die and dance alive again in the moonlight Filled by Yang ... I yearned for love and comfort and wasted time to Be bored in yet again. Hormonal highways: Emotions that can jump at every chance. A virus that will kill to suck life dry and leave those stronger withered souls behind. I want a knapsack filled with you and me and life. I want a greasy fat-free Indulgence in the real, I want our character we make to be laughable again, And packable and then I want to love you like I love the road. The idea as healthy as the good and the bad worth it's weight in wisdom Golden chips for you and me to spend on dreams of us together. One track labeled 'life': What’s worth knowing? One track labeled with your name: It’s worth fighting. One track labeled 'emotion': Not worth dying. One track labeled 'me': Emotion fighting dying, living knowing you -Rider Strong
I sing by myself alone, away from the angels that hold my hand.
you know what would be really attractive? if a guy that was in a heated rage came in and threw me down and just completely killed me with passionate kisses... :wink: im so weird. ive just had that thought on my mind, and figured id share it in my blog.
today rawked... its had highs, lows and inbetweens, but everyday rawks when your life is going exactly where you want it to go.... i am looking so forward to tomorrow! its going to be hectic, but thats ok, ill handle it. its going to rawk so so so much! i cant give every detail away as to whats going to happen, but the church is going on a hike tomorrow, and im going to COMPLETELY IGNORE cj the whole time; see if he'd like a taste of his own medicine. :twisted: then from there, its only going to get better 8)
i need to use some of my tbucks... by the way, i know ive stated this before, but if anyone wants some tbucks, just tell me how many and ill gladly give them away. ive already given over 2,000 tbucks, and i will be giving more away. dont hesitate to ask. and once in a while, ill comment on the tblurt saying 'the first person to add me to there freinds list will DEFINATELY get 500 tbucks'. and i will, no joke. i didnt even say that last time i gave them away. all i did was say 'hey, anyone want 1,000 tbucks? and i gave it to them too. i did have to split it between 2 peeps though, but i gave it to them. and i know the 500 tbucks comment is a cheap excuse for people to add me to there friends list, but hey... leave me be.... :roll:
well, as my days progress, so will i be entering events in my blog. so return if you likes, dont come back if you hates... chow!
p.s. i love rider strong's poetry he's my favorite poet because he's an awesome person, and his poetry is among the best ive ever read. i know many will disagree, but its my favorite style of poetry, so enjoy it or hate it, i dont care. and if anyone is familiar with this poem ande you see something wrong with it, then im sorry. ive commited this poem to memory a long time ago, and thats how im writing it now.
Top of the World
You dont know it, but sometimes I go to a hill that overlooks the landscape's mask of city lights for a sip of momentary grace. On this brink of everything I know, I can gain an eyeful of the lost atlantis in the human soul, and the breath that fills my lungs with the air between two stars. If you were now to capture the image of this elation in the framework of your mind, or find transcendence through these words, then, at most, you would know nothing of the beauty your existence throws to me. For mine is a love of no expierience, no thought, no measure, no words could ever degrade into reality by virtue of degree.
notice how my subjects never have anything to do with my entry? ya.... im screwed up like that...... nirvana- heart shape box (which is also playing right now ^.O)
yay! im really starting to get into tblog... i just wish dani wouldnt leave us... that'd suck ass.... and i dont want to suck ass... lol, jared did a really cool entry with his 'biography story'. its cute! that lil' demon... :twisted: anywhosers... lol, i think dani had a good morning today. ya, she was acting crazy and aCtInG like she was oN sOmEtHiNg....lol.. :D .. .yes, it was hillarious.
i try not to mention to much about my personal life in these journals. for one, i dont know whose reading them, and another, i try to stay positive. not that anyone actually cares, or that my life is that bad, its just that if something happens that i cant be optimistic about, then its not in here.....
i noticed a lot of people talk about religious issues and politics and evrything in there tblogs. im glad to see people that care, thats cool. my brother is always into the latest news, (not IN the news, he just listens to it... hes not a felon....lol) and hes always saying how hes going to go live in a cabin DOWN BY THE RIVER.......smokin crack... lol, thats a cris farely favorite right there :wink: .. but he seriously wants to 'get away from it all' and i totally respect that... that rawks.
well, ill go... im running outta idears... :lol: ttyl
While he was talking at Baylor University, President Bush said, "Times are kind of tough." He also pointed out that Bill Gates is kind of rich, that water is kind of wet, and that Elvis is kind of dead. -- Andy Waits
The end of laughter and soft lies. This is the end, My only friend, the end
yay! been talking to some peeps on yahoo, and i just got back from jareds where we hung out and watched a movie, and went 4- wheeler riding lol.. tonights been cool. not really sure why....9.9...
this is gonna be a short entry, gotta go in a tiddy bit. but i do want to say that leonardo dicaprio is so hot without a shirt. lol, sorry, hes the perfect male image... ahh... hes a babe...
yes! these days have been sweet... bitter-sweet. but all the bad times have had a sugar-coating over them so to speak. i dont think ill say when those times have been, but one day i might. for now, im going to bed.. until next time, goodngiht you princes of maine, and you kings of new england...(lol, is that quote correct? im going on memory) nighty night!
"I would never do crack... I would never do a drug named after a part of my own ass, okay?" -Woody Allen ~~~~ Silence is Bliss
The worlds gone gray... silence is bliss Something you only touch,with a bitter-sweet kiss.
Heaven is earth, sky is rain. Nothing in life remains the same My dream has left me... all my hope is gone You never cared, never could hold on
The worlds gone gray... silence is bliss Somethings you can only touch with an unholy kiss
Change isnt bad unless your me Cause when your gone, your all I see... All of lifes luxuries, are fathoms in the air And like most things, evanesce into despair
The worlds gone gray... silence is bliss Some things are only touched with lost-and-lonely kiss
And when the dream dies, hope goes with it And when the flowers wilt, thats when im ready to end it But one thing can save me: your bitter-sweet kiss Because its the one thing that makes silence seem bliss.
i love that song! its 'finger eleven- one thing'. ive liked finger eleven for years, and im glad there still putting out music. there an awesome band.. anyone that doesnt know them needs to check 'em out. ill put the lyircs to the song when im done bloggin ;).
these past few days... lol... theyve been going good, except for something thats been on my mind, but im sorting through it. i feel so bad that i havent updated my uj! its actually my one journal where i put actual things that have effected my life, and boy do i have a lot to put in there! oh well, ill get around to it. i feel good about myself! i just gave another 1000 tbucks away... i gave the first thousand to jared, and if anyone else wants some, just tell me, ok? not sure i can reach 1000 though, but ill gladly give you any amount you request.
yay! today's classes rawked, but theres always the exception of 3rd period... mr. wilson can be a bitch to be with in that class. chads not talking to me as much either, i think he thinks i like him or something... i flirt to much with him i suppose ^.^... anywho... yay! im making friends in tblog! i feel luvved...(pronounced luvv-ed because it sounds cuter ^.~) and i think my 'i luv piggies' spell is over with... sadly enough...V.V oh well, on to bigger and better things i suppose... like LEMUR POOT or SLOTH PEE or TURKEY SHIT... lol. ask dani if you want to full story behind those...^.O
well, i guess ill go... .til next time.... Peace, Love, EMPATHY
Finger Eleven One Thing
Restless tonight Cause I wasted the light Between both these times I drew a really thin line It’s nothing I planned And not that I can But you should be mine Across that line
If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn’t that be something
I promise I might Not walk on by Maybe next time But not this time
Even though I know I don’t want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds
i cant remember who kurt was quoting from when he wrote that in his suicide note, all i know is that its there, lol.
im so proud of myself! do you see the floating cursor? that is, if it still works..lol. i had a html class at gca, and i barely remember anything from it and i this stupid stuff is all i can do (i cant remember anything of html because i failed that class....lol, slept to much during it.) mr. staats is a killer teacher for html, it made me sleepy though zz=.=zz.... and i did have the entire suicide note on the right of the page, but that was a little much, so now its a quote from it. and if you cant tell by now, i love quotes. "The ability to quote is a serviceable substitute for wit." -- Somerset Maugham
well, last night i got a suprise visit from a friend, (like no one knows who it could be...lol) we were gonna go and um... do that thing dani jared and me were talking about... but, we couldnt find people... yesh, what i say makes no sence.. but leave me alone.. ive been staring at html code for about 2 hours... O.O O.O (pop) @.O .ok... fun stuff... im gonna go take a shower... im feeling a little dirty :twisted: ...ill most likely update later. BYE! ^.^
PUNISH YOUR FUTURE TO SPITE YOUR PAST
"Man dreams one day to fly A man takes a rocket ship into the skies He lives on a star that's dying in the night And follows in the trail The scatter of light" -U2 (In a Little While)
Why did God create men? Because vibrators can't mow the lawn.
lol, that quote is one that madonna said. i dont like madonna, i think she's a whore, but thats a hillarious quote.
i had SO MUCH fun last night!!! my god did it rawk! i was depressed almost all day yesturday, and i was so afraid i was going to fall head-frist into another one of my depression spells, but then an awesome freind of mine pulled me out of it and ive been happy ever since! ^.O mom bought 'gangs of new york' today. i love that movie. today was one of those days where i feel like going all out punk. well, punk as far as i can take it. i had on my brand new cargo's, and a really cool punk shirt with cool straps on the pockets, and all my punk accessories. i wanna see if dani, jared and me can do that thing we were talking about b u t i c a n t s a y h e r e . . . . . lol, its gonna be good though, and i cant wait. that is, if we sitll do it.... :wink:
LIKE A CAT WITH DIAMOND EYES LOVE'S POWER CAN HYPNOTIZE :shock:
"See, the problem is that God gives men a brain and a penis, and only enough blood to run one at a time." -- Robin Williams
"The rain that falls tastes like blood The blood that falls enchantes my soul The chickets around me burn like fires The fires around me enchantes my soul"
today is such a beautiful day outside... i love days like these; raining, cold, and all i can smell are dead leaves. it is fall, you know...
its fall break and we get out of school for four days (counting the weekend). i dont like it.. i like it that i dont have to do work, but it sucks that im deprived of social contact for FOUR WHOLE DAYS.... lol, and it sucks that stephen is in nashville, or i would talk to him the ENTIRE weekend. and maybe this break will give me a chance to start bakc with my freach lessons. i am totally in love with the french language. its so beautiful! someone could be cussing me out in french and all id be able to do is look starry-eyed at them and start to cry. all the words sound like poetry... and i would give anything to learn it.
"L'amour est enfant de Bohême, Il n'a jamais connu de loi Si tu ne m'aimes pas je t'aime; Si je t'aime prends garde à toi..."
English translation-
"Love is a gipsy child Who doesn't know what rules are about If you don't love me, I may love you And if I love you, watch out..."
pretty, pretty stuff right there peeps.... YAY!!! its raining outside even harder! it all sounds so pretty.... yes... anywho, life rawks! its been going way to good, and im a bit worried that the depressions soon to follow... it might not, this is the longest ive gone without being depressed,so maybe im over it. :P
"RAIN IS ONE OF EARTH AND SUN, OF YOU AND ME AND EVERYONE..."
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips- you-apart pain. I hate love."
-Rose Walker, in Sandman: The Kindly Ones by Neil Gaman
....I took your kiss on the spray of the new line star
everything here lately has been reminding me of the movie titanic, or if not titanic then its reminding me of the late 1800's to early 1900's time period. it started when i watched 'gangs of new york' for the first time last weekend. and things have been popping up since then. and leonardo dicaprio is everywhere.
other then that, things have been going semi-ok. i was really depressed tuesday because of some information that i found out and in my other journal it explained the whole story. and last night i got the news that theres a pretty good chance of that thing not bieng an issue anymore.. so i was stoked all day about it today! well, what i thought to be a good day, has only gotten worse with reaidng somethings that my really good freind wrote. ... i guess i cant have my cake and eat it too. lol, oh well... things will only get better... i can feel it. :lol:
what the hell is that littel face doing!?! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~
"Oh my love It’s a long way we’ve come From the freckled hills to the steel and glass canyons From the stony fields, to hanging steel from the sky From digging in our pockets, for a reason not to say goodbye
These are the hands, that build America.
I last saw your face in a watercolour sky As sea birds argued a long goodbye I took your kiss on the spray of the new line star You gotta live with your dreams Don't make them so hard, ohh ohh.
yay! i have a tblog! this is me first entry, and i wont update regularly, and if i do, its going to be different from my uj's. lol, if anyone wants me to add them, leave me a comment and i will! well, ill update lata!
So early walking was I this autumn eve,